If you are reading this, I assume you are either a massive Harry Potter fan or a Kristen Stewart lover. If you are a fan of either of these movies, then you’ll know exactly what I’m talking about when I say that there are rumors going around that Kristen Stewart is going to be leaving the country soon. 

Now, before you start thinking that I’ve lost my mind, let me explain. I’ve been following Stewart since the beginning of her career, when she was just a kid. I remember when she was just a member of Nuts Comedy, the YouTube channel would always play her stand-up specials back-to-back-to-back, and I thought she was so hilarious. I saw her in a small guest starring role on an episode of Psych and was reminded of how talented and hilarious she was when she was a teenager. Plus, she has a great following on TikTok. So it’s not like I’m sitting here obsessed over this actress or anything.

Rumors Have It

There have been rumors flying around that she’s leaving the country for a while because her Harry Potter films are about to finish. According to the rumors, she’s going to be filming some parts of the next film in Paris, France. But there are also rumors that she’s going to be leaving the country soon anyway. Because she doesn’t want to be too overwhelmed by her new responsibilities as a mother, and with her new husband’s career in the military taking up a lot of his time, she has started looking for a getaway. 

If you have followed my channel for a while, then you’ll know that I don’t usually like to rush into making important decisions, especially when it comes to my health. And in light of this, I have been trying to talk myself into believing the good rumors about Stewart. Because let’s face facts, she’s an extraordinary actress and a wonderful person.

A Change Of Plans

But then, last week, I got an email from a fan saying that they heard a rumor that Stewart was going to be appearing at the Toronto International Film Festival. So I went and searched for the information on my phone, and sure enough, she was definitely going to be there. And even though I knew it was probably just a rumor, I couldn’t help but feel really weird and unsettled about it. Why? Because she’s always been one of my favorite actresses, and it felt like a letdown that she had to change her plans at the last minute just to attend a film festival.

Why Is Toronto Stunningly Similar To London

I’m usually really good at letting things go, but this was just too much for me to handle. So I did some research, and it turns out that there is a lot of similarity between Toronto and London, which is weird, because I’m from Toronto and I know absolutely nothing about London. (Full disclosure: I did know a little bit about Birmingham before we were able to reschedule our flight to London. So there.)

Apparently, it used to be the case that Toronto was known as “the baby of Hollywood,” and a lot of famous faces would attend its film festivals. It was even said that some of Hollywood’s biggest stars would drop in for a visit every now and then. This was especially before air travel became so cheap, which, of course, makes those festival visits a lot more special.

Stewart’s Appearance At The Toronto Film Festival

So anyway, let’s get back to Stewart. I tried to avoid thinking about her leaving the country and being overwhelmed with her daughter and new responsibilities, and then all of a sudden, she was there. At the Toronto Film Festival. That was a movie-related event that I had been looking forward to, and it was just too much. I couldn’t handle it. I started to feel sick. Like, really, really sick. Like, “Whoa, what’s happening here?” sick. 

I got into such a state that I had to call my personal physician and ask her for advice. I told her everything, and she was so sympathetic. She said that it was perfectly normal to feel like that, and offered to come to the house and give me a physical. (For those of you who don’t know, a physical doesn’t mean taking your clothes off. It just means she’ll examine you and take your vitals. So yes, even Doctor Stewart wants to be a part of this.)

After I finished telling her everything, she told me that I needed to take a step back and not worry about anything. That everything was going to be okay, and that she’d come back to the house after her appointment and give me another pep talk. (This time, she wanted me to remove my clothes for her.) 

So, obviously, I had to cancel my plans for the day. I spent the whole day sitting in the living room, watching TV and talking to my wife. I didn’t go to work, and I didn’t leave the house. I didn’t even go to the bathroom, because, honestly, this was more relaxing than going to the bathroom. (I don’t recommend this if you have heartburn or acid reflux, though. I’m pretty sure that my doctor said that those were consequences of my anxiety attacks. So maybe don’t do that.)

I felt completely worn out and talked to my wife about taking a nap. She was already in bed when I got home, and it was around 10:00 pm. We’d been talking for hours, and I was so grateful to lay down next to her and feel her arms around me. It wasn’t until then that I realized how tense I’d been all day.

So you see, this was a really bad day, and it made me realize how much I needed her. How much I needed my wife. How much I needed help, and how silly I’d been trying to do this alone. I needed someone to help me through this, and she was right there when I needed her. I need to call her and thank her for being so nice. She probably thinks I’m a psycho, but I promise she’ll understand. 

Hopefully, some of you reading this have had similar experiences with Stewart. Or maybe you’re just a really big Harry Potter fan and it’s hard not to think about the series ending. Regardless, I hope that all of you had at least one good day today, because as much as we might want to avoid thinking about bad stuff, it always finds us. And when it does, we need to be able to cope with it. This is how we do it: we talk to each other. We keep each other company. We remind each other that we love them. And we let them know that we’re thinking about them.

So no matter what, don’t give up. Even when it seems like things are going terribly wrong, they might actually be going perfectly. And if they are, then you’ll never know because you weren’t there to see it. Keep that in mind. Things might not seem like they’re going wrong, but they might be. So don’t put yourself in situations where you’re overly stressed or anxious. Take some time for yourself. And if you need help, then let someone know. Even if it’s me. (Yes, Doctor Stewart. I’m sure you’ll want to be a part of this, too.)