I remember the first time I saw a pairingsphere. It was at the Sydney Mardi Gras, where a tall Australian man in a beautiful cream suit walked by, holding a small sphere. As soon as he passed by, all the women in the crowd went, “Awww.” The women were pairing off with the man in the sphere as if it were some kind of divine appointment. What started out as a fun moment turned into a moment of pure joy, as I watched these women swoon over the man in the beautiful suit. These were two people I had been searching for my entire life. Their connection was undeniable. It was like something out of a fairytale.

I had lost my virginity two years previously to a woman I had met at a party. We had been dating for a few months, and things were going well until she decided to pack up and move to Spain to be with her ex-boyfriend. After she left, I was lost. I didn’t know who I was supposed to be with, or if there even was anyone out there I wanted to be with. So when I met the man in the suit, I knew I had to have him. Unfortunately, things didn’t turn out the way I planned. The man in the suit didn’t want anything to do with me, and the women at the Mardi Gras were only interested in the rich, bad boy image he created for himself. I was crushed.

The truth is, I wasn’t built for relationships. Growing up, my parents always told me I was born to be a father, but they also told me I was born to be a woman. They raised me to believe that I could only be responsible for myself, and that being alone was never an option. Even now, after three years of dating, I still haven’t found the “one.” I haven’t had a serious relationship since the day I lost my virginity to my ex-girlfriend. Every time I think I’m finally going to meet the woman who will change everything, she breaks up with me. It’s like she waits for me to make the first move, and when I do, she doesn’t want anything to do with me. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop, but it never does. I’m still the same guy I was the day I lost my virginity. The only difference is that now I’m 35 years old, and I still haven’t found the man of my dreams. I keep wondering if this is as far as it’ll ever go.

Inevitably, I find myself thinking about my ex-girlfriend, about what she was like, and the kind of men she liked. We weren’t a perfect match, but I think we had a lot of potential. She found my impulsive nature exciting, and I knew she would challenge me. I didn’t want to lose her, but I think I did. No matter what, I will always love her for breaking up with me. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, and I felt like I lost her when she left for Spain, and then later when she changed her phone number without telling me. I felt so betrayed, but at the same time, I felt like I was finally free. I didn’t have to worry about what other people thought about me anymore. I could just be myself and see what happened. I missed out on so much in my teens and early twenties because I was too afraid to be myself. I hid who I really was from the world because I was convinced I wouldn’t be accepted anywhere. Looking back, I realize that was a terrible mistake. I should have told the world I was gay, and then seen what would happen. I would have found love and happiness, and maybe even found my “one.”

But instead, I fell into a deep depression. It was like the bottom had finally fallen out of the well I had been digging for the past 3 years. I felt so ashamed about what had happened to me that I would go to my grave without talking about it. I had lost my virginity, and it wasn’t just that. It was the image I had created for myself that I had been trying to live up to my entire life. That is until I met the man in the suit, who didn’t care about any of that. He just wanted to be with me for me. And for some reason, that made me feel like I could finally be myself, and not have to worry about what anyone else thought. I wasn’t built for relationships, but he made me feel like I could be someone’s forever.

Pattinson And Robert: A Brief History

Many of you reading this are probably thinking, “Who cares about some celebrity couple’s history?” To which I would say, “I do.” I am a huge fan of the late, great, Nicholas Sparks, and I always look for any opportunity to learn more about his literary works. I became particularly interested in one of his lesser known novels, The Notebook. In it, the eponymous hero falls in love with a woman named Emily. But Mr. Sparks doesn’t write love stories just to please his audience. He weaves a tapestry of life that is both heartbreaking and hopeful. In the end, he asks us to sympathize with both Emily and Ryan, because we all want what is best for each other, whether we want to admit it or not. I feel the same way about Robert Pattinson and Drew Tyler Bell. I haven’t seen or read anything by them, but I think their pairing has a lot of promise. Let’s take a look back at some of their history.

A Flighty Start

There is a very interesting backstory to Robert Pattinson and Drew Tyler Bell. They both began their acting careers relatively young, with Robert appearing in a small number of films and TV shows before landing the role of Edgington Hughes in the 2004 film The Prestige. From there, his career took off.

He continued to develop film roles, most notably in the 2012 Sundance hit The Great Gatsby and the 2014 film Exodus: Gods and Kings, where he played the part of Moses. Most recently, he starred in the Netflix series The Neapolitan Novels, based on the works of Neapolitan writer Niccolo Amalone. In the first season, he plays Carlo Bonini, a passionate criminal lawyer who defends his hometown’s most famous mafia boss against a murder charge. The show is gorgeous and filled with drama, and is definitely worth a watch. In the meantime, Drew made his presence known to film audiences in 2011 with the release of his directorial debut, Diary of a Teenage Girl. Like many young actors before him, he found success in online videos, especially with the musical-interlude-style parody videos he and Michael Caine make together. One of their latest collaborations is a send-up of the James Bond theme song titled “You Only Live Twice.”

No Time For Relationships

It would be fair to say that both Drew and Robert have had an eventful love life. They have both been in very public and very public breakups. And it seems like they are always on the verge of a relationship. But it never lasts. The closest either of them came to finding “the one” was with Elizabeth Taylor’s adopted daughter, Gigi. In 2011, Drew was photographed with Gigi at a restaurant in Paris, France. It was later revealed that they had been seeing each other for several months.

They never married, and although they have a lot in common, neither of them has ever been very happy, and they both seem to avoid commitment as much as possible. They have had several friends and business partners try to “fix” them up, and although they are both incredibly attractive and well-bred, they have never seemed to genuinely want to be in a relationship. It is still a mystery to me as to why people keep trying, because they obviously don’t get it.